Tuesday, October 26, 2010


I'm learning to cope. Not accept, not excuse but cope.

Since moving to California, I had somehow "acquired" 55lbs. Never in my life did I ever think I would let that happen.

But I did. It's here. And it's lookin' like it doesn't want to "go gently into that dark night".

In other words, it's not coming off easily.

That makes for a few issues trying to be comfortable. Oh, I can still wear my clothes. The one advantage to being tall, is there just so many places for fat to go. But everything is tight. I don't like that. I believe that clothes should be effortless. No mess, no fuss. Pick the outfit out, put it on and forget it.

So I had to go shopping. I bought a couple of big girl pants. Then this weekend I bought a dress, a couple of skirts, shirts and a few jackets.

I will now be a very well dressed and stylish slightly overweight lady.

Huh....yippee. (not)

But - I do feel better. I look better. I'm not fiddling all day, I'm not uncomfortable at all. I can focus on my day rather than my clothes.

Now, please know everything I bought was either on sale (deep discount) so it's easily parted with or can be taken in beautifully.

I always have a plan.

So now that I'm comfortable and able to focus, I'm back on my weight watchers. I have arranged for the time to start working out again, and I'm cautiously optimistic that this may all work.

Meanwhile I'm comfortable. And I am not obsessed with how fat I look. In fact, I rarely think of it. I'm feisty and focused.

Right now, 55 is just a number on a sign on the side of the road.

And a goal. Cause you see......I can't do 55.


  1. You are always you, Tammi, but have you talked with your Doctor about your thyroid function? My sister-in-law put on an unexpected amount of weight when her thyroid was in its (just) precancerous state. Please have it checked.

    I know I put on a fair amount of weight when I was going through my Mycroft Holmes/Nero Wolf phase. (Sitting in one place and thinking for 12+ hour days and eating out of nervous habit.) Unfortunately it hasn't come off with exercise ... it just turns into useless muscle. I hope you do better.

  2. I know exactly what you mean; I can put on 20 or 30 pounds and while others can't see it, *I* know it's there and it must come off!

    Buying new clothes was a wise choice; as you lose they'll get baggy! LOL! Exercise is where it's at; nothing else will help me lose excess weight.

    You can do it! :)

  3. On the bright side, you'll be extra-cuddly & huggable :-)